so it's been awhile, hasn't it my friends? yes, yes it has.

i am currently enjoying a nice thanksgiving break that i started with a flu shot this morning. don't get me wrong; i LOVE getting shots, and no im not sadistic (a masochist, perhaps...) but i wasn't in the mood for going anywhere today. especially since i have a crap load to do for school makeup.

yep. i am going to korea 2wks before winter break to get plastic surgery.

there, i said it. i've gotta mold a steel heart sooner or later, since im coming back to school after the major job anyways. but i must admit, im only forcing myself to be brave when really, im just self conscience. since im asian, it only takes a string of floss to blindfold me, and my face is as flat as roadkill, so u may understand why i wanna do this. however, although almost all koreans do this, americans don't, so im kinda uncomfortable..... i mean, what will my friends think? im always the happy go lucky girl who doesn't care about anything but having fun.

i dunno. all i can do is pray that someone may help get through this. someone that may turn my heart to ice so that i won't be hurt by rumors or stares that i know will come.